__________Living In A World Of Confusions----------

Monday, February 19, 2007

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i dun think ppl go to my blog no more...haha...hmm so i think this will be private...

well i cant sleep...missing someone badly...hope she's sleeping soundly now...this few months had been hard for her...she wanted to come to watch me play takraw, perform, spend time with me at night but she cant..she feels so left out and down everytime and she even feels useless...

The things is that i dun mind if she cant..coz i know how much she loves me...that's all that makes me happy u see...i dun mind at all coz i understand her situation her life...she is brought up in a strict religious family...i respect that...all i know is that i just need her to love me so that i cud haf the fuel in me to do anything...she is everything to me...she saw me and love me without knowing anything abt me...not of becoz of my ugly face nor my voice...she loves me for who i am...and nobody cud steal that away from her...she is SPECIAL!!!

i am only human..and i do make stupid and terrible mistakes whether it is intentional or not..but to whoever i had hurt them...i am sorry..i am a totally different hazeeq now...not the same self-centered hazeeq in primary skool nor the show-off hazeeq in sec school...i've evolved and mature..i've been hiding myself in poly..i dun like fame i dun like people to like me nor hate me..i just want to be normal...and i want to make u happy baby...i know u dun like me to sing in public and all but even if i do...u still support me becoz u dun wanna hurt my feelings...haha..u're really sumthing...u always do the compromising...sumtimes i just feel that i dun deserve sumone like u..but since i've got u...i'll make sure i keep u safe with me and never let u go...and try never to hurt u..I LOVE U!!!

well i am dead tired from takraw training which really terribel..haha..tournament is just around the corner..

anyway i think i am able to sleep now so nite2 blog...

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