__________Living In A World Of Confusions----------

Friday, May 30, 2008

\\The Most Dear...//

Ok hie blog...haf forgotten abt u actually...but i really need to let things out my chest...so i remember this day well....

*writing with tears*

OMG! i think i blew it...this is really confusing...relationship...im a truthful guy u see..i know i am...but u see...sumthing happened...every little thing that happens caused sumthing big in my life...it may start even by wanting a job...ok fine..i dun haf a stable job becoz i have not complete my NS...i feel so left back...inferior i supposed...

So i just i dunno...so i've got a msg for a job...well so i search it out...i call the person... so started chatting...but as usual the only thing that's in my mind was syasya...i love her so much...never cud anyone imagine...and yeah so i think the person took it the wrong way...that simple conversation to her was considered BEST!!! i dunno...to me it was just a normal chat and its abt the band and of coz u wanna be comfortable u'll have to break the ice...but i guess i led the person on or sumthing without even realising it...i dun even haf the intention too...

Well she gave me a testi and syasya read it...well i was shocked at the testi...haiz...she must be thinking that im cheating on her or sumthing...so i've decided im cutting away exterior threats...i've cancelled my frenster acct finally...i dun care abt anyone else u see...or anything else...just her...i know karma happens...she might take her revenge by calling other guys...that's how she made me usually think abt when i did it...which i truly know..that's why before i did anything i always think abt "what if she did this to me? wud i like it..? can i accept it..? if not, i'll never do it..." that's how i stay loyal and that's preety much love...guys dun really show their feeling or express it...we just do the right things without even her noticing it...or without even her knowing it...that we actually listen to her advice her desires...

Hmm...i feel alot better now...u know i'll probably forget abt this blog soon again...i'll come back when i need to let everything out again...

*baby...i'll never hurt ur feelings...the six promises are still kept dearly in my heart
-love u much more each day
-never to leave u
-never cheat on u
-still love u under any condition even if ur disabled
-to be truthful and honest never to lie
-never to hurt ur feelings...

love u so much....

I'm Confused|2:39 PM|

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