~Journey 2 Be Rememberd~

The Most Dear...

2008-05-30T14:39:00.002+08:00

Ok hie blog...haf forgotten abt u actually...but i really need to let things out my chest...so i remember this day well....

*writing with tears*

OMG! i think i blew it...this is really confusing...relationship...im a truthful guy u see..i know i am...but u see...sumthing happened...every little thing that happens caused sumthing big in my life...it may start even by wanting a job...ok fine..i dun haf a stable job becoz i have not complete my NS...i feel so left back...inferior i supposed...

So i just i dunno...so i've got a msg for a job...well so i search it out...i call the person... so started chatting...but as usual the only thing that's in my mind was syasya...i love her so much...never cud anyone imagine...and yeah so i think the person took it the wrong way...that simple conversation to her was considered BEST!!! i dunno...to me it was just a normal chat and its abt the band and of coz u wanna be comfortable u'll have to break the ice...but i guess i led the person on or sumthing without even realising it...i dun even haf the intention too...

Well she gave me a testi and syasya read it...well i was shocked at the testi...haiz...she must be thinking that im cheating on her or sumthing...so i've decided im cutting away exterior threats...i've cancelled my frenster acct finally...i dun care abt anyone else u see...or anything else...just her...i know karma happens...she might take her revenge by calling other guys...that's how she made me usually think abt when i did it...which i truly know..that's why before i did anything i always think abt "what if she did this to me? wud i like it..? can i accept it..? if not, i'll never do it..." that's how i stay loyal and that's preety much love...guys dun really show their feeling or express it...we just do the right things without even her noticing it...or without even her knowing it...that we actually listen to her advice her desires...

Hmm...i feel alot better now...u know i'll probably forget abt this blog soon again...i'll come back when i need to let everything out again...

*baby...i'll never hurt ur feelings...the six promises are still kept dearly in my heart
-love u much more each day
-never to leave u
-never cheat on u
-still love u under any condition even if ur disabled
-to be truthful and honest never to lie
-never to hurt ur feelings...

love u so much....

refresh

2007-02-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

i dun think ppl go to my blog no more...haha...hmm so i think this will be private...

well i cant sleep...missing someone badly...hope she's sleeping soundly now...this few months had been hard for her...she wanted to come to watch me play takraw, perform, spend time with me at night but she cant..she feels so left out and down everytime and she even feels useless...

The things is that i dun mind if she cant..coz i know how much she loves me...that's all that makes me happy u see...i dun mind at all coz i understand her situation her life...she is brought up in a strict religious family...i respect that...all i know is that i just need her to love me so that i cud haf the fuel in me to do anything...she is everything to me...she saw me and love me without knowing anything abt me...not of becoz of my ugly face nor my voice...she loves me for who i am...and nobody cud steal that away from her...she is SPECIAL!!!

i am only human..and i do make stupid and terrible mistakes whether it is intentional or not..but to whoever i had hurt them...i am sorry..i am a totally different hazeeq now...not the same self-centered hazeeq in primary skool nor the show-off hazeeq in sec school...i've evolved and mature..i've been hiding myself in poly..i dun like fame i dun like people to like me nor hate me..i just want to be normal...and i want to make u happy baby...i know u dun like me to sing in public and all but even if i do...u still support me becoz u dun wanna hurt my feelings...haha..u're really sumthing...u always do the compromising...sumtimes i just feel that i dun deserve sumone like u..but since i've got u...i'll make sure i keep u safe with me and never let u go...and try never to hurt u..I LOVE U!!!

well i am dead tired from takraw training which really terribel..haha..tournament is just around the corner..

anyway i think i am able to sleep now so nite2 blog...

heylo

2006-08-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

hey bloggy...

it has been really long time since i update..haha...well been busy latelypractising takraw with PASSION...i hadn't been doing so since i won champion for under-16 which was 2 years ago...i think it is abt time i shud bring myself up to another level...everyone is improving and i shud too...

today just complete my first paper...INSTRUMENTATION...damn it was confusing...and ape yg blajar banyak2 beberape je kluar...yg tak important yg kluar...haiz...there goes my A....sheesh...yar yar i know i can't study last min...must always prepare myself ahead...next paper is in a weeks time and i think i will start in 5 days time hehe...

Well...

abt the pass few days was great...!!!! well of coz i spent time with my miss pink lady...haha...went back to study at library level 4...haha...went there at 10 went to business blok to eat at 2...haha...then releks2 kat t21 at the memorable spot haha...releks sampai kol 5 then headed back to woodlands...hehe...140806...

*remember this day okiez hazeeq

so until next time i'll update...see ya...

...InjUrEd...

2006-07-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

Heyya...

Well today was okay...woke up and sneek into my sis room and "pinjam" her PSP!!! gerek main DAME!!! nyeahahhahaha...best lamaer skali..then kol 3 baru mandi...hehe...then lepas tu gi main takraw...

ARGH!!!

i totally suck in takraw...issit bcoz i no mood to play or is it i am fed up with playing it...? haiz..i dunno..maybe it is bcoz of all the injuries i am facing...OUCH!!! catit!!! ='[...PAIN!!! PAIN!!!

well...

the balik and mandi semua..then STRAIGHT kan rambut...wanna see..?

So...

does straight hair suits me better...? or my curly hair now...? anywayz...that's it for today..i'm tired and really inured...haiz...i'm never gonna be 100% fit...

AKU MEMANG DEGIL!!!! PADANLAH NGAN MUKA AKU!!! nyeahahahha!!!

2006-07-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

today..

tak gi skool bangun lambat lagi...haha...ape tah tidak...fan nyer kuat bertiupan ke air muka ku yg sangat ngantok...angin sepoi sepoi...best nyer tido...dah lah katil lembut and very comfortable..and ngah peluk bantal favourite...tak bleh bangun lah jawabnye...haha

then...

bangun kol 12.30 mandi ...siap...and reached skool kol 2.30...gi main bowling ngan darling...hehe...tak best sangat ar...pasal tangan sakit...then lepas tu makan roti prata kat fc3...then head to woodlands antar syasya and then balik umah...

lepas tu...

dah sampai umah...tukar baju and gi jogging...fuyohh jauhnye lari...masuk hutan then rasa takut...pnyerlah sunyi...then macam monyet loncat2 sebat buah pong pong...terpaksalah...dah jadi hamba takraw...haiz...

seterusnye...

balik umah then kena gi NTUC...mummy suruh beli barang2 nak masak...barulah sampai umah...then lepas tu balik umah...relek tgk tv and skarang ngah update blog...so...that's all folks...

seeya till next time...buaiz...

..binget...

2006-07-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

Today was a very LONG day...

well didn't sleep must after the stupid Argentina defeat...KELONG PUNYE REFEREE!!!! Argentina deserves to go in semis...whi also gonna bring me to my soccer tournament this morning... ='(

i woke up at six...(thankz 4 waking me up hehe...) then kol sadiq...bathe...siap then went out of the house at 6.45....then reach tiong baru at 7.55....takde org yg dah dtg...waited2...then semua dah sampai then ate breakfast kat mcdonalds...

then soccer match starts at 11 for our team..

then lawan nyer lawan nyer lawan...until got this stupid referee KELONG!!!! gaduh ngan kita lama seh..nak step bagus...kerek giler!!! dier je yg nak betul..than we dun haf mood to play ar...then in the quarters we lost...referee kayu betul...

then when to tiong baru plaza...wow!!! ade MOVING OUT SALE!!!! kat FOOTLOOSE...bnyk kasut yg mahal2 semua cost $10 je...like empoli, B.U.M. , femle shoes semua murah giler...but didn't buy pasal takde yg berkenan...

then rush back to taman jurong to play takraw..haha...win every match..and my libas is improbing...boleh sebat tu bola 180 degrees......then balik dah tak bleh tahan seh..penat giler..then kena heret ikut gi jemputan...and now i am blogging...waiting till england vs portugal match...

so yah starting soon...so that's it for today....

...shocking...

2006-06-30T18:03:00.000+08:00

haiz...

wow wat a day...two days ago i received a testimonial from this girl..she was a primary skool fren which i was quite close too..a rival in sports..we were in the same team but of coz diffferent gender...so yes i do haf a crush on her but she was the centre of attraction of boys...beutiful and atheletic...then on her bdae i was trap in a classroom with her alone becoz she was me to sing fer her lagu'sejarah mungkin berulang" by newboyz which was HOT at that period of time...so i did..

so...

anywayz she gave a testi and then chatted at msn just now..and she told me that she had love me since primary skool...i was like WAT??? can't believe that all this while she loves me of all ppl...i dun even know what to do or wat to say...i only know that i haf wat i want now...although we do haf problems but that's the thing abt love..if u love sumone..u wud ahf to learn to live with them and face happy and sad moments together...

haiz....

...today...

2006-06-30T14:52:00.000+08:00

Aiyo...

baru buat blok smlm...kirakan dah gerek ar...skali nari pagi demam pulak...bingit nye...dah plan nak bangun gi skool...and tgk budak lawa tu pakai baju kurung color grey...skali tak bleh bangun...kwang kwang kwang!!!! BINGET!!!

then bangun kol 12.45...mandi and drag myself to Masjid Assyakirin...macam biasa gi basement...and the khutbah isn't that clear...mic dier hilang2...tak dapat dengar sangt..than after that beli makanan untuk ganyut2 yg ada kat umah...and now blogging...

Ouhno...

my dad kat umah skarang...petang mesti kena trg takraw...haiz..ape bleh buat..dah jadi hamba takraw...sakit2 pon train jelah...tak habis2 "kalau demam mesti berpeluh baru nanti panasnye kurang"...terpaksalah train...

well...

malam nak main takraw jugak kat yew tee..harap2 Sadiq bin Shahdan tu tak BUIH LAGI!!!! pembuih betul!! haha...

*missing u honey...sorry abt todays meeting...

Long time...

2006-06-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hye...

can't belief after soo long i've lost this blog and now i found it back...and yes the profile is not updated but yeah still werking fine...need to make amend of things ard herevery messy...well so now i guess i can blog everyday...YAY!!!